Michigan State University, George Saimes and where I worked in the years after leaving MSU
As
our common high school friends knew, a decision had been made between
Dale (Rosenberry) and I to attend the same University. I had won a
prestigious New York State Scholarship that paid a considerable amount
for five years. Still, if you've caught the drift of any of these
chapters, doing well in high school was not my main priority.
Living was. Not only had I never seen a blackboard in high school –
very bad vision, and no glasses – I was absent a tremendous amount, and
had impossible problems sleeping.
My teachers did not
understand the kind of home I came from. They would not have guessed it
had elements in common with the home Marshal Weissman came from. One of
those teachers was Dale's father. Maybe I shouldn't blame them, for I
didn't understand so well, either.
When I won big scholarships
at the end of my HS Junior year, many teachers did an about-face from
the extraordinarily poor grades (Bs, mostly, but that was in the face
of tests being awfully easy for me) they were giving me. For some
reason, my teachers en masse, tried to make up for this by giving
me straight "A"s my senior year. It was a gesture, though I needed
freedom from that home more than anything else.
I missed over
80 days my Senior year, took as much stress off myself as I could, and
stayed away from home as much as possible. My goal was to feel better
about myself after a period of feeling there was no chance I would
survive. In particular, I started a lawn mowing and raking business so
I could buy myself some clothes and get a badly broken tooth
fixed.
Dale was, or had been, the most popular kid in my
class for years. Having his friendship was an extra plus added to
several others. I felt that I had to honor the trip Basil and Billy
Rosenberry took us both on during the summer before our Senior year to
see many campuses. We chose MSU. It was a school Dale could get
accepted to, and then there were the girls and the campus: Both
gorgeous! At MSU one of my friends was the Junior Miss Michigan.
I
met George Saimes my first day at Michigan State in August 1959. Dale
and I were playing pool in the West Shaw Hall recreation area. George,
also in his freshman year, was playing nearby. We struck up a
friendship that remains to this day. During this April of 2009 we had
two phone conversations about his NFL Scout web site for which I did the original web setup for him.
To
put this in a context, as I often find myself saying, there were eight
guys with whom I played sports in High School. All – including Dale –
were dead before they were 65. Even my first wife, a disastrous
marriage for which George was my best – well, actually the only other
person present, outside the minister – man, died last year, also under
65.
After three months at State, George and I became
roommates. We would be roommates again at the end of my second year, as
I was about to graduate from Michigan State. One of my claims to fame
at MSU was that George, as a sophomore, wore my jacket while appearing
on the cover of Time Magazine.
George said he had to take a
math course, and it was his biggest worry. I said, "No Problem," I
would help him with the course. This was a characteristic mistake I've
made throughout my life, often not recognizing that many people have
psychological difficulties with courses like math and science.
George
just couldn't do it. He got an F, a failure that threatened his
eligibility for football. What we should have done was to get him
tutoring early, and to have
prepared for his finding a way to a passing grade a year, or two,
later. Now I felt responsible for putting him in trouble.
Still, I had a plan. Spring Quarter of our Freshman year, I took the course as if I was George Saimes.
I
was walking across campus late one night next fall quarter with a
friend, who had just finishing saying that she heard that I was very
smart,
and thought it would be neat if she were in a class with me. I
suggested she might find that a very different experience than talking
– in our flirty way – while walking across campus.
At
that moment the teacher for the course saw me, waved, and called out,
"Hi, Hero." George had a spectacular fall football season. She was
referring to his having run for over 150 yards against Notre Dame. He
also was an outstanding tackler, playing often, almost the entire game,
in those times before specialized defenses. My friend, though
quizzicle, was now doubly impressed. I had to tell her something,
suitably simple, of what that was about.
Indeed, the whole
incident was a perfect storm. My friend Dale's roommate was in the
class I took for George. My luck: 33,000 students in 1960 on a
huge campus you could walk across and not see anyone you knew. While he
didn't tell on me directly, the RAs in the dorm were let in on the
situation, and one of them confronted me near the end of the quarter.
Worst,
however, was when I showed up one day to the Mathematics department
Office Spring quarter of my sophomore year. I was one of the team
members of the winning Putnam Team that year, my last at MSU, for I had
more than enough credits to graduate. The teacher of that class and
Leroy Kelly, who ran the Putnam Team, were simultaneously in the
office.
Kelly and I had never gotten along. He especially
hated that I seemed to be taking MSU very lightly. All was revealed by
a brief interchange of hellos, and his using my name. The story
doesn't end there, with meetings all the way up to the president, John
Hancock, of the University, and denouncements of me personally, by
politicians in Michigan.
The upshot – Stage I: Kelly convinced
the other four people I had math classes with, in the mathematics
department, to give me Fs. That seemingly prevented my graduation. Ah,
but even without those courses, I still had enough credits to graduate.
The upshot – Stage II: I was eventually awarded a degree
– from the Honors College to which I had been a member since the 2nd
quarter of my freshman year. The letter of that award came with a
letter from Dean Fusak who had followed me through the process. There
is an upshot – Stage III below.
I worked for my Uncle Ted, as
Peggy says, but starting in June 1961, after I left Michigan State, not
while I was in school. The project there was simulating the launch of a
Polaris Missile from a Nautilas Submarine in a wind-whipped Arctic Sea. Yet, that company – Allied Research Associates – within six months.
My
second aerospace job was with Bell Aerosystems out in Niagara Falls.
Contrary to Peggy's statement, I never had a job as an instructor at
University of Buffalo. I knew my engineering, my degree major at
Michigan State being Electrical Engineering, and I was at Bell
Aerosystems the day President Kennedy was shot. My image of everyone I
can recall from that job is of their reaction to the JFK assassination.
Our projects were the Lunar Excursion Module, and the Saturn Missile.
What
I found, however, was that the engineers around me at Bell hadn't
seriously mastered their courses. Few were doing more than
book-keeping type calculations. The R&D people came to me, often
skirting my bosses – and thereby getting me in political trouble. Soon,
I found there was just too much resentment. I was getting an ulcer,
possibly exacerbated by that terrible first marriage. (The ulcer
never returned after I left Bell.)
My first wife
insisted I should get out of engineering; it would impress her father
if I got a PhD. That wife had a similar need-hate relation with her
father, as did Peggy with her mother. Her father, Max Graff, was a
problem for a long time, though years later he changed. TC never
changed, her opinions grew as hard as her demeanor. Marrying poorly was
de rigeour for someone from a home like mine.
The upshot –
Stage III: When I tried to go back to school, I couldn't get a letter
of recommendation. My applications, except for one, for graduate school
were rejected with that the cited reason. The exception was University
of Michigan. A professor from UM, who had been visiting MSU while I was
there, knew of my situation. Luckily he was on the committee for
evaluating graduate students.
My eventual thesis advisor, D.
J. Lewis, suggested that they likely knew more about my story, during
my time at MSU, than did I. I suspect Kelly was a pain to others, too.
UM
didn't at first offer me a scholarship, and, Lord knows, I had an
exceedingly poor background for seeking a degree in Mathematics. Still,
I went to UM in 1964, and within a short time they procured for me a
Rackam Fellowship and an NSF Graduate Fellowship. My degree – untainted
by any problems this time – came in June 1967, and I did a two year
post-doctoral at the Institute for Advanced Study. That was already
quite an honor, though Peggy has to turn that into something strange
and unlikely related to Einstein.
Although
I am an unlikely academic, for the whole business is almost beyond
belief political, there were a string of successes into my early
career, including the offer of Tenure at University of Chicago when I
was 26. No success, however, seemed to mean more, than impressing Max
Graff.
When visiting the Graff home when we were first at UM,
I was repeatedly told, in most certain terms, that I couldn't possibly
have what it takes to get a PhD degree at UM. A friendly secretary
(that's what we called Administrative Assistants then) one day told she
had gotten a call from someone seeking information on me. It was my
father-in-law. She assured me she steered him to someone who knew me.
From that day on Max's attitude changed, to near awe. UM meant a
lot to him. He had been slated to go there until his father demanded he
take over a Ford Dealership in Flint.
Still, being from such a
dysfunctional home, meant I lacked any connections, or training in the
academic life, and even more so, didn't really like its sucking up to
prestige. I continued to get in serious trouble, and had an unending
series of adventures that assured I would be considered one of the most
unusual of mathematicians.
I was 100% a researcher. While I
knew personally a tremendous number of the most famous of
mathematicians, it was an alien world to me. Still, like any
mathematician, I get the usual response from a world insecure about
mathematics and science, whereby almost anything I do is sneared at as
being the result of my being a mathematician.
On the other
hand, I was always empathetic to the problems of teaching and learning.
In that context, I found educators would assume I was low on the totem
pole of the places I held positions: Stony Brook, UC Irvine, University
of Florida, and Hebrew University. Having been a full professor very
early, having had four famous fellowships – despite the lack of
politics, and having always had a very high salary, starting with
that at Stony Brook, any reasonable evalution would show that was
wrong.
Perception is an astonishing thing. Probably I was impervious to it, for no one I ever met was more famous than TC.